What We Once Had

About my mom and our very rough past.

How could you stand me

when I treated you like s**t,

when I bled right in front of you

and I didn't care a bit. 

You always tried to comfort me

when I tried to kill the pain,

when suicidal hate was all I had

and your efforts went in vain.

How did you always love me

when I came home drunk and high,

when I yelled out that I hated you 

and ran without goodbye. 

How did you save my life

when my wrists were painted red,

with one-hundred and seventy-two cuts

because of you, I am not dead.

Why did your face appear 

when I tried to drown myself,

why did I think I hated you

when you only wanted to help.

I hate myself now

for the way I treated you,

I'm sorry mom, I really am

but now we're one not two.

Separated over the desolate miles 

and emotions that drive us mad,

but still I miss your voice at night

I miss, what we once had. 

Reviews

[Jane Doe]

awwwwww i like it alot its a wonderful bond between a motherr and thier child
-ajm

[Jonathan De Elvira]

I'm sure your mother wuld be touched with this wonderful masterpiece...
good job there..
keep it coming..
love ur style..

[Nathan Durham]

This was a great write. It was very painful and powerful.

[Moonflower]

This was beautiful, it was hard to read, painful. great writing.

[Lovely Lady]

Ouch... reminds me of my mom... I couldn't have written it better so I will just read your over and over... I will always miss her. I call her my first guru... and she was so enlightened... my savior is her words that continually linger in my mind. Thanks for this and thanks to mom.
~♥~

[Sara Mercury]

This one made me cry. Have you sent this to your mother? I know if my son sent me such a poem, I'd be so happy! At least, that he sent me something written by him, that is. This poem is rather lovely, really. Hope you're better now.

[The Water Queen]

Wow I did not see that coming. Mother's have unconditional love. And this is a tribute to her for all she has done for the writer. Great poem.