What Have I Become

I wrote this straight from the heart, no fake emotions.

What have I become 

but the one to break my heart,

I always climb so high

just to slowly fall apart.

You'd think I'd know by now

to stop allowing pain,

but when I'm my only friend

than what is there to gain?

My heart is wrapped in barbs 

pressed against my  soul,

so every time it beats

shatters a deeper hole.  

I've hurt myself before

to see if I was dead,

but life became a river

that thick and golden red.

I write these songs of sadness

so I can cry alone at night,

I try to bear the pain

but it's always a constant fight.

What have I become 

but the one to break my heart,

I always climb so high

just to slowly fall apart.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

The poem is strong. The story almost too true in real in emotion. We can create walls of fear and only know disappointment. I believe when we must forgive our self. Then we can move on. Otherwise we can swim in our loneliness and never know what may be the possibility of the next move in a life. A excellent poem.
Coyote

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

I thought this was very emotional. Great write. One of my favorites by you. Love it. Thanks for sharing. :)

[Tainted Devotion]

"I've hurt myself before
to see if I was dead,
but life poured out of me
that thick and golden red."

This stanza spoke to me the most, for it is something that I've also felt and have been through. I've felt this and been through this more times then I could ever possibly count. I feel hurt and saddened deeply by this poem. But agree with the others that this is an amazing write. It's very powerful and beautiful.

[(Super) Heroes Never Di..]

"My heart is wrapped in barbs
pressed against my soul,
so every time it beats
shatters a new and deeper hole."

This one made me hurt. :/
However, it was written beautifully.

[Lilly]

This is an amazing poem - The third and fourth stanzas are my favourites. Such honest emotions. Great work.