Chapter Two

CHAPTER TWO

SAM

                I’m used to waking up and feeling regret. Regret so vile, I vomit when I wake up, just to get the churning in my stomach to stop. Remembering everything I’ve done in the past decade hurts that bad.  But today, today was different. I woke up and got ready to start on my plan. My plan to undo everything I’ve done in my years and fix all the problems I’ve caused.

                I stood up looked at Amy. She looked so scared she was going to cry.

“Amy, please. It’s all going to be okay. I promise.” I said as I walked toward her.

“No, Sam. It’s not. You’re ruining your life because of this.” She said as she turned away.

I took my sisters shoulders. “No, I already ruined my life, by ruining Cassie’s. And I’m going to fix it. I promise you, Amy. I’ll be back.”

She didn’t say a word, so I gave her a hug, which she held onto for awhile, and grabbed my bag. I turned and slammed the door shut so Amy would know I left. I made my way down the driveway to my car, slowly. I started my car and backed out of the drive. As my tire left the curb, I noticed Amy in the door. Her face all red and puffy, she was waving at me. I stopped my car, yelled I love you out of the window, and waved goodbye. It finally hit me. What I was doing could defiantly land me in a place a million times worse than where I was. It could take away everything I had in life. It could make it so I had no freedom, friends and no family. But I couldn’t go on living like I was now. I was a shadow of my former self. I already had next to nothing, so I didn’t have much to lose.

It was going to take me awhile to get to Missoula County Juvenile Center in Montana, but it is well worth the gas. As I drove, I turned on the radio. Just as you’d expect, a song came on that reminded me of the reason I left. It made me think of the night everything happened.

I and Cassie never meant for it to happen like that, but there was nothing we could do to stop ourselves. Once the fire was lit, it was over.

I yelled at her as the flames burned on. “Cassie, what the hell did we do?”

Her eyes stared me down and her words cut me. “You know, Sam, this was your idea! If you want to get out of here, go. I’m staying to make sure it’s done!”

I really didn’t want to stick around, so I ran. It kept going through my head, how something I said made Cassie go totally insane. She wasn’t nearly the same that night as when I first met her. We’d been inseparable friends for as long as I can remember and I don’t know how she could just flip on me. I mean, we killed someone. Someone we’ve both known our whole lives. It was someone we hated more than anyone in the world. Now that I really think of it, I never knew why Cass hated her, she just always agreed when I called her a b***h. I vented to Cass about everything Heather did to me. Even though she never raised a hand to me, she did worse things. I was her slave. And she never let me forget it.

Cassie always called her dearest mother, but I don’t see how. She wasn’t even our mom. She was a foster parent who took us in. Cassie came first, so I always guessed it was because she was Cassie’s only mom. She even took Heather’s name. She never adopted us, but she took custody when we both had nowhere to go. The police who arrested us said we were the worst kids he’d ever heard of. If we had killed our foster mom for no reason, we must be crazy. That’s how we both ended up in the ward. The doctor there said we could have had severe mental damage from the loss of our families. Me and her both knew that wasn’t why we did it. I had my reasons for wanting Heather dead, but I never really knew Cassie’s. A traffic cop interrupted my thoughts with blaring lights and sirens.

“License and registration, please.” He said without looking at me.

I started digging through my glove box. “Of course officer, what was the problem?”

He stared down and sternly told me my windows were illegally tinted. “Illegally tinted, sir? I didn’t even tint them. I bought the car this way.” I said in argument.

“Well sir, I have to give you this and you can report to court with papers saying you did so.” He said as he handed me a ticket for $110.

“WHAT?! Are you f*****g serious? This is bullshit!” I yelled as I saw the fine.

He told me I needed to calm down, or I was gonna end up somewhere I don’t want to be.

“Yeah, what are you gonna do about it? Take me to jail for yelling? Try it, a*****e!” I said as I put my car into drive. He put his hand on my window.

“Sir, step out of the car please. I’m gonna ask you a few questions.”

I was pissed off enough having to leave Amy, so I lashed back.

“Oh, why? You think I’m drunk? This is bull! F**k off, dude.” I rolled up my window smashing his hand.

He pulled away fast and swore loudly. “GET OUT OF THE CAR, SIR!”

Without thinking, I stepped on the gas and booked out of there. I could see him shouting at me from the rear view mirror. I didn’t know what he was saying, but I considered going back and taking the punishment. But it hit me that, I had nothing to lose. I already had a record, and had intent to do something illegal anyways. I knew if I was caught for assaulting that officer, it wouldn’t be near as bad as what I was going to do in a few days. So I kept driving and driving until I was far from the police car and the swearing officer. My GPS said it was gonna take a few days to get to Montana from Georgia, but I was home free if I stayed away from cops. I am Montana bound. “I’m coming for you, Cassie. Just be ready.”

Author's Note

Honesty.

Reviews

[Arianna]

:) its really good
i keep wishing i could read more.
but there isnt any more to read.
*hint hint*
keep going its really good.
the part where it says I and Cassie should be Cassie and I,
but thats all i found wrong with it:)
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