Poem Of A Mad Black Woman...

Never write when you are this angry. YOU CANNOT STOP!!! LOL All this stuff really was happening...

 

Disgracing my womanhood

Demeaning my character

You must think you got it like that

 

Starving me of respect

Stanching me with regret

So undeserving of my love

 

Forget what you promised

Forgave what you did

Remembering you’re lies

 

Somebody made me a fool

Somebody paid the price

Wasn’t me, man it must be nice

 

Thought you had me on lock

Thought I wouldn’t leave

Sorry baby, I do have self esteem

 

Tried to keep me locked in

Holding me back from life

Lucky, I didn’t become your wife

 

True colors arose like never before

All respect I had for you, it’s gone

My life isn’t yours to own or run

 

You thought you had me

Now you’ve lost me

Too much for you to deal with

 

I don’t care about you

Like you didn’t care about me

It wasn’t love you had it was control

 

Control of where I go

Control of what I do

Sitting back being the shadow behind you

 

 

No more drama

No more tears

It’s 2006 and my real love is out there

 

You tried so hard to make me fall

Even harder to make me hold on

Trying to make me dependent on you

 

Oh please! Don’t be mad now

You had to know your time was running out

I was made too beautiful to settle for this

 

The verbal abuse

The emotional stress

All that’s left is to have your fist to my head!

 

Yeah bet that would make you a man then!

How hard are you now?

Oops look it’s not me but it’s you on the ground!

 

Been through too much to let it go there

That’s why I got my stuff from your place

To prevent any reason for you to come by

 

Everything that was us, is no more

No more taking you back

My heart doesn’t have a revolving door!

 

I refuse to beg a person to love me right

I wasn’t made to cry, argue, and fight

Now look I’m right where I started

 

My heart is numb

My emotions barely have air to breathe

I can’t even feel compassion for what we used to be

 

Regrets! That is all I have from us

Should’ve kept you far from me

Never should have trusted again

 

You couldn’t handle me once before

For some reason I let you back in

It’s all so good. I got you boo!

 

Next time you see me keep rolling player

Don’t even think thoughts or dream dreams

Don’t bother with I’m sorry that’s a fool’s game

 

Won’t be anymore of you calling me a b***h

You ain’t seen nothing yet, I got your B***H!

Wait to the finale hits, believe me it will be grand!

 

You will wish you did me right

I promise you that for sure

When I needed you, you didn’t have my back

 

I was sick

You were in the streets

Funny though, when it was you I was at your side

 

All you had to offer me was stress

Yet, I took advantage of you right?

No, you took my kindness for weakness

 

Taking my love for granted

Boy, it’s gonna cost you serious repercussions

Talk about a poem of a mad black woman!

 

Forget all that, your time will come

Cause that’s karma baby!

It’s gonna hit you hard to, hmm sucks being you!

 

I know I sound real bitter now

And I AM!

Bitter as hell that I wasted my time on you!

 

All your manipulative ways

Trying to confuse my reality

Too smart for that sweetheart, I am a woman

 

That’s cute though!

You thought you could run on my level

Dealing with things of the mind is my specialty

 

You can’t come half stepping if you going up against me

See sweetheart psychology is close to me like my hair weaves

We got a bond like a baby in the womb of its mother

 

Did you really think you could get in my head?

I think you bit off more than you could chew partner.

I’m the most strategic analytical person you ever met!

 

Look at you pounding on my door like a maniac

You think I’m going to open that door with just my son and me?

I said it was over and I got my things, it’s nothing left to say

 

Wait you still mad about last night and the cops at your house

Your bad for all the screaming and cussing you did

I was on my way out but you had a point to prove

 

All up in my face like I’m some kind of dude

Telling my sis to move back like she would let you hit me

Aww now you calling my phone, not answering that sweetie

 

Ring, there it goes again

You think cause you blocked the call I’m gone pick up

I’m straight! I was for real I’m done with you!

 

Stop calling my phone

Don’t come to my house

Leave me alone cause I told you I was out

 

It’s a thin line you crossing there

All love is gone nothing but hate

Filled with so much anger and rage

 

Oh you are trying to put some fear in me

Acting defenseless isn’t my style

I’m a fighter but I don’t have a death wish either

 

Never knew you could be so mean

Never knew your temper was this bad

Glad I know now before you had me dead

 

Phone still blowing up but I would be a fool to answer

Just to hear more cursing, disrespect and threats from you

This life is from a black soap opera it can be reality

 

A new year and already the drama is on

That’s cool cause once your gone your gone!

Can’t handle what I did to you huh? Told you I was gone!

 

That’s how I know you aren’t the one!

I was tangled in your web of lies and deceit

Trying to place blame on me but it was all you baby

 

You don’t have to worry about me anymore

I walked out and locked the door behind me

The greatest relief I felt in a whole year

 

The biggest part of me I thought was in you

Come to find out it was dead weight

Killing time waiting on you to find time for me

 

You know why the caged bird sings?

Because it’s happy to be away from you!

So tired from your fantasies of perfection

 

Wanting me to be so flawless

While you are covered in dirt

I’m will be me crazy, sexy, and cool

 

You do what you do best!

Be selfish and live your lifestyle

Can’t live that way forever it’s going to catch up

 

I’ll be on the sidelines laughing

Not cause you got what you deserved

For the simple fact I used to be yours!

 

You lost a good thing here

But you already know this

That’s why you tried to keep me so low

 

As long as I was down

As long as I needed you

You felt your place could not be touched

 

Keep her close in my watch

Make sure I’m in real good

Dog her when I want, she ain’t going nowhere

 

Yeah, she love me too much

She would never leave

That’s right I got her on lock she stuck with me!

 

I do as I please

I say what I want

I got it like that and her to flaunt

 

She fine, yeah I know

That’s my lady right there

I love that girl would give her the world

 

That’s my future

She will have my kids

Be my wife ya’ll watch and see

 

That’s my trophy

I pick her up and put her down as I choose

Cause she will always be around, I can never lose!

 

Ha! Jokes on you baby boy

You have a lot to learn

About life and especially about me

 

I’m not your doormat

I’m not your prize

I’m not some silly little schoolgirl I have my pride

 

So, do me a favor when you reach hell

Tell me how it is down there?

Let me know how it feels?

 

One thing for sure, it’s nothing compared to what you did to me up here!

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[Glen Yumang Manese]

THAT WAS ONE ROLLER COASTER OF A RIDE WITH UPS AND DOWNS...LEFT AND RIGHT...SPINNING OUT OF CONTROL OF A WRITE...A BIT LONG OF A VERSE...BUT YOU LET IT ALL OUT...VENTING THE WHOLE TRUTH IN THE LINES...MILK IT FOR ALL ITS WORTH....