OVERDOSE

Sometimes Life Is Too Much

Overloading

A borderline explosion

Time slowly descending

Down to the point of no existence

Looking down to watch myself die

Feeling my heart rate relaxing

Dying is the best feeling I ever felt

Cause the world is my enemy

 

 

Wanting to go back and erase

All the pains from every face

I hate myself for letting you in

But I love myself for making it end

I don't have memories

I have never ending scars

Constant reminders

And a past that won't expire

 

 

I can't sleep at night

Seeing your face

Feeling your touch

Damn it makes me wanna throw up

It's crazy cause I was only 4

And you felt the need to take me through years of more

I guess blood really is thicker than water!!!

It's because of you my thinking process is so screwed

You're the reason why I don't trust men or their intentions too

Innocence, Innocence, Innocence

Something I'll never have again

 

 

Oh and do not even get me started on you!

Even knowing my past

The crazy things I been through

You took it upon yourself to re-create what he did too!

Forget that! You took it to a whole different level of disrespect

Guess you forgot that's our daughter we're lying next too

The crying, the screaming, the no's you ignored the hell out of me

Such a selfish b*****d to take what you didn't own

Telling me I love you throughout the whole process

What dysfunctional level of love do you call that?

Cause when you had it you couldn't keep it!

Had the nerve to be mad cause I killed the memory of what you'd done!

You must have been straight trippin if you thought I would birth that son

A continuous reminder growing inside of me

It wasn't his fault but I had to keep my sanity

Better yet didn't I already just birth our baby?

 

 

A part of me died again that day

That's when I realized I was birthed for pain

Pain from illnesses

Pain from relationships

Pain from those who are suppose to protect you

But all they did was steal your innocence from you

Family oriented?

For what reason should this be?

Family is the one who started this whole thing!

I don't trust

I stop believing in love

Life is a fantasy of broken dreams

And until someone shows me different

There will be a continual overdose on my heart!!!

Reviews

[taw]

i loved it u write with so much feelings girl