I'm Hanging At The Edge Of The Knife.

This pain is eating at my insides...
I can't sleep.
I can't breathe.
I can't speak out.

I can only watch as this monster inside me overtakes control of my body and leaves me hollow.

I'm numb.
I can't keep living like this.
I don't eat.
I don't sleep.
I don't dream.

I walk around an empty soul.
Feeling nothing.

No happiness.

No hope.

Am I f*****g insane?

Is this really what I've become?

Is this really what became of that little girl that was once the happiest kid?
Have I really dug that big of a hole for myself?
What ever happened to that perfect little daughter of yours?

She's gone.

Consumed by the shadows.
Consumed by their lies.

I can't let this happen.
But I can do nothing but watch as I let this illness break me apart.

I'm caged in my own heart...

I'm caged and I can't get out.

So help me.

Is that too much to ask?

Would it kill you to care?
Would it kill you to listen?
Would it kill you to ask?
Would it kill you to love me?

Not, It'll kill me.

I'm destroying myself.

I've stumbled too deep into this maze and can't find my way home.
Can't scream.
Can't walk away.

Can't find my heart in this hole I've buried myself in.