I feel myself toeing the borders,
trespassing, slipping into other countries;
clandestine passages over ground rules & drawn
with a finger in sand, other lines.
When I think of where I've come from,
all those years of kind, preindeterminate definitions,
all my black dresses, & closets full
of years I keep under lock and key,
it comes as a surprise that underneath
I was not surprised at all.
Just waiting. If everything is true,
then I feel grateful; a graceful uninvited,
a clean-handed Calliope.
What would Ares think? Hard to explain,
as in all moments like this, a gray sunrise, a sad song,
that first slow wakeful blink:
I am the lucky one. I will pour over you
like fingers searching old envelopes,
I will read you like love letters,
smoothing over each crease turned sepia
from a life's-time of folding,
of tried & tired patterns. I will appease
sore muscles and put length into your bones
like I've done for every other hero,
though so far, I'm not asking for anything
more than a handshake, a way to
bargain back a coat.