I curse

I curse thy name

If I wake up in the morning
I curse my breath
I hope to die
The next time I rest

I'd rather not feel anything
Than feel happy
Because the pain isn't worth it
Not to me

If I am happy
I curse the name
I curse my name
And walk across that grave

That grave has a name marked
It might be mine
I'm not even sure anymore
I want to be unnamed

I'd rather not care
Save you the trouble
I know that you care
That's probably the worst part

Because I know as time goes on
I hate myself everyday
Nothing will ever change
And that's okay

Author's Note

My first poem on here guys.

Reviews

[Shawn]

Very raw and full of pain. It made me so sad.
I think, when you can draw emotion from someone by simply writing a poem, you have honored your craft. You have honored yourself.

[sereenaoutloud]

Thank you for sharing. It is very sad but very honest!

[Zanaru]

Your poem expresses intense emotions very well. It is dark. It is sad. I am glad you have this outlet for your creativity. I hope to read more soon. ;-) take care.

[Jamestown]

This is extremely sad! I can't imagine what's making you feel this way, it saddens
me, I pray you will be okay! Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[Riv]

Thank you for the response, there will be a lot of these poems as they are my only and most efficient way to express myself. But there will be good times with the bad.

[Jamestown]

Keep writing!