Lifes Very Core

I'm not lying to you.

Hunched over, emotion, burning with ache,

Eyes forced opened, I'm wide awake.

There no way around it, I'll  never make it through,

This pain, only has one blame; you.

I tried so hard, but I can't do it anymore,

You were my everything, my lifes very core.

I wouldn't trade this pain for love,

nor would I trade this pain for hate,

For all that? Well, it's just to late.

So I've decided to take it, and deal with what I got,

I took all the memories, not one that I forgot.

I guess you could call me loyal, or faithful if you must,

Never once did I doubt your trust.

My trust is still all vested in you,

and maybe that's why I will never make it through.

See here, I'm not dried eyed,

Of course for you I've cried,

to the very point I choked with complete pain,

I'm litterally going, completely insane.

I'm not looking for your sympathy,

I'm not looking for you to comfort me,

you've made your choice, though it's a muderer.

So I'll let myself not cry with joy,

I'll cry with sorrow, that will destroy.

I am completely estranged from you, my love,

Released myself, like a blank white dove.

The sun shone through, I'm able to breath,

the night is done, I will get up for the day,

but once night falls, again, the pain will have it's way.

It's my screaming, my choking, my pain, my broken heart,

It stopped for now, but soon, it will start.

All, over, again.

 

 

Author's Note

Just something I pulled together, I guess. There is probably grammar and spelling errors, but I'm not picky.

Reviews

[Eagle Cruagh]

Try concentrating on your memories of pleasure.
A psychologist might have a suggestion or two, but
I think they usually suggest a substitution----if your
thoughts are painful then you must think of those
things that were an absolute pleasure, keep at it
until the sweeter thoughts become the master of
your mind.
Well, it`s better than just going into a pain mode
every night----right ?

You write very well, but I would much prefer to see
something that pleases you, because what you write
will reinforce your positive thinking and may help to
keep you on track.

Good Luck !

----- Eagle Cruagh

[Kaotic Barbie]

This is a beautiful write. However very sad, but the feeling it sends you into is amazing...how well you make the reader experience what your going through.

[Aludra]

I'm speechless. You don't really know what to say to a poem like that.
You're letting yourself completely open for someone to see what's happening to you inside.
That's really brave, and admirable.