My Light

It's scary

It's very dark

Maybe it's because my light is 

Gone

My happy, smiling light

My, too good to be true, light

Has ran away.

So here I am trying to create that beautiful illumination

I have finally done it!

Its not as dark as it was before 

But not as bright as it was either...

But its okay. I feel okay,

My heart doesn't fell as tight and squished as before

But there it is again, that beautiful illumination...

No. I don't need it.

I don't want it.

But it's lighting up another darkness.

My homemade, dim light flickers at the sight

I run to it, 

Don't die

I finally made you 

Don't die

It weakly flickers then 

Disappears.

I search and search but it was too dark

I couldn't find it.

I'm too tired to try anymore.

So I will sit in my pitch black loneliness

I'm tired.

At least I have the memory of my beautiful illumination

I'm happy with the memory, it's enough.

...then 

I see a small flicker in the distance

I wonder what that was...