Not Good Enough

It's 5:21am and I'm just waking up. I had fell asleep about 7:30pm last night. I turn over to see you sleeping peacefully. I reach for my phone to scroll through it and as I am doing so you wake up. You're annoyed that I'm awake and on my phone.
You seem to be annoyed by everything I do here lately. I try to be quiet, but eventually you give up trying to go back to sleep and that's when it starts... We are arguring and you're getting up and getting dressed and walking out of the room. I feel defeated. You always walk away from me and never let me speak.
I feel as if everything I do is never good enough for you. I do as you say. Your wish is always my command. I basically bow down to you, but now it seems as if you don't want me around. I'm breaking in ways that took a life time to repair. I'm falling deeper and deeper into a black hole, but you don't seem to notice.
I'm just a burden to you. A nuisance. A failure. A loser. I'm just a person that you wish you could get rid of. I'm like a fly who's buzzing in your ear and won't go away.
I stay in the shadows of the bedroom as you come and go and hardly look at me and cry to myself and wonder what I did to be treated like this....

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[Thepensiveplayer]

You posted a very heart-felt piece here. I think we've all been there in one way or another in our relationships. I think one key to getting through things is remembering that your greater than what you go through. Sometimes we can find ourselves involved with a detractor that tries to bend us to their will at any cost. Yet, they'll be the one in tears for losing you. If two people can't be on the same wavelength in terms of mindset and energy, then its time to cut bait and fish another season. Also, never let pain or struggle define you. That's easier said than done, but how you handle yourself as you live your life determines who you are. While your being introspective, remember that life is worth living because your purpose is greater than you realize. Take care and keep on writing. :)

[Raeven]

When trapped, the one thing that rings true is "freedom"...whether that's from mental burdens or physical shackles.. Sometimes it's not about what someone did, but rather they changed for whatever reason...