I was only fourteen

Never thought I'll miss you this much

Never thought I won't forget

Love and distance will never make a match

Just like the salvation I couldn't get.

I saw all the love in your eyes that day

I regret the moment I couldn't give that rainy day of May

I wish I could have at least asked you to stay

but I was the first one who left

Oh it was a beautiful play

Now it's so hard to pretend we've never met.

I'm sorry for leaving you, for everything I couldn't do,

I was only fourteen, I didn't know 

That first love isn't easy to blow.

I believed that last day was the end  

I avoided the pain in my heart

I guessed I'd be strong and 

I'd find an escape in my art.

When I started to feel you it was too late

Even to look for you in my dreams at night,

I saw my happiness walking through rain drops

Once I start to remember; your memories get away of sight

and fall with tear drops 

Leaving me my emotions to fight.

I'm sorry for leaving you, for everything I couldn't do,

I was only fourteen, I didn't know 

That first love isn't easy to blow.

I wanna have one more chance to see you

But I know you aren't near

I wanna shout telling you how much I loved you

But I know you wouldn't hear

I need to run to your arms and tell you how much I missed you

But I know you're far from here

Sometimes I just wanna feel you

But now I know, it's not fair 

You loved when I was only fourteen and now you don't care.

Author's Note

It's strange how first love would stay alive in our minds giving us inspirations and a smile even after it's long erased from our hearts..