Mommy's Wish

Older poem again. True story.

 

Mommy's Wish

Tell me mommy why don't you love me

and why can't you let me be?

how come you're always putting me down

and why do you keep smacking me around?

 

Why do you hate me so much

why my self esteem do you always crush?

i'm doing everything I can to be good

to get you to love me like you should.

 

You look at me with such hate in your eyes

as you make me wish I would die.

why can't you just give me a hug or kiss at some time

would that really be such a crime?

 

My body and heart is so broken and bruised from you

you've made my heart broken in two.

why can't you just love me now

please mommy tell me how.

 

Alright I'll admit that I'm dumb like you say

and stupid and fat and in the way.

i think this time through

i am hurt real bad.

 

I don't know what to do anymore

no mommy, please don't lock me behind that door!

i'm scared, all alone and it's dark and cold

please mommy, I'll try to be bold.

 

You always leave me crying in a corner at night

as I always shudder in fright

I hug my teddy and I cry myself to sleep

wishing that life could be sweet.

 

The cuts on my arms are mostly from you

you see mommy your wish has come true.

I loved you mommy

why couldn't you love me too?

 

Stephanie Guerrero