My feelings

The pain hits me so hard

it knocks the wind out of me

i feel helpless like an new born sea turtle

scared to get killed

protecting myself

feeling like an manic

with all this chaos in my life

cold like ice

i roll the dice

someone slice me in bits and stepped all over me

thats how i feel ill

my heart beats

im scared it might stop

on top of all this

it's an horror to watch

i wish i couldn't hear

can you hear me my dear?

i wish i was camo

so i can hide from this

i wish it dies

i won't even cry

you lie

so i threw an pie

i felt an warm feeling spread throughout my body

im feeling like nobody

it feels like the devil is here

trying to invite me to hell

just like my life is hell

or i will just go to jail

i hear the bells

to the entrance to hell

the heat is burning me

and soon i don't feel it

im at the gate

i stop and wondering

if anyone will miss me or need me

i thought about my mom

i stop and turned around

and started to race home