Silent night

A child and a girl

"I'm sorry Matilda " Joel managed to muster "shh Joel it'll be okay I'm fine really "Joel held Matilda in his arms she was so small she had grey dyed hair the hung loosely around her it was the length from her head to her shoulders she had icy blue eyes and the left one is now blind she had manage to put a yellow bandana around it when they got home she was still wearing her arm pants and brown and white flannel top she was now pale as ghost when her skin tone was of the Indian tribe. "Matilda please let me take you too the doctor". Matilda managed to laugh and coughed up blood that set on her pouty lips "and tell him what two street rats got in a shoot out by accident? No doctor will come from the city to here Joel and I told you I'm fine". Joel began to cry as her looked down at the girl from age 10 to 20 had raised him "it's all my fault" she put one dirty fingernail to his mouth "Joel I rather I die that you die in the gutter ,I wouldn't have been able to carry you so please i don't hate you I love you Joel you are my son" Joel began to weep harder as he held Matilda "but I gave you grey hair at age 20" Matilda laughed spitting up more blood which Joel whipped with his grey button up shirt "I dyed it remember so my streaks wouldn't stand out in my brown hair and for your information it's silver not grey and I like it shows that iv come along way" Matilda used some her strength too push of her socks revealing her violet painted toe nails Joel started to rock Matilda for he was now twice her size she stood at 5 foot 1 and Joel stood at 6 foot 3 Joel had black curly hair and a pale complexion and his eyes where the color of the brown wet sand his face was puffy from crying and his nose was broken from one of the muggers who jumped them after the shoot out he had a strong jaw line and high cheek bones he still wore his button up black tee shirt and faded blue jeans his shoes and socks were also gone Matilda took this all in and began to cry too "why are you crying Matilda?" She only smiled as she felt her heart slow "my boy I could never bear children of my own so when I found you on the street when you were five at ten years old and a gutter child I knew god had gave me you" Joel hugged Matilda harder " I love you Matilda!" He screamed Matilda put her hand on his cheek " I love you too Joel " she smiled as the light went out of her eyes. Joel cried for his lost guardian and his lost friend he picked her up and changed her into a light purple gown and changed the bandana to match the dress he didn't put shoes on her for Matilda loved to run barefooted everywhere "don't worry I remember" he carried Matilda to their garden laid her body down in the flower section and gathered branches of their orange tree and placed them beside and on Matilda's now cold body she looked as if she was taking a nap in the woods he began to cry as he sat her on fire for Matilda had always said she wanted to be burned when she died so her body could also be free . Joel went into the house and changed into new pants and a white long sleeve shirt and walked out to where Matilda was now being sent away whole and Joel full-filled his last promise and sang silent night until the sun rose the next day as the sun began to shine Joel went back into the house laid in him bed "I love you Matilda no I love you mom I hope you are safe where you are" as he drifted to sleep Joel swears to this day on that morning he heard Matilda's humming of silent night.