Why Me ?

A Poem by Liamesq

When I close my eyes I see a door
Which could lead to castles, new lands and much more
Why then am I scared of going through it
When my life right now is so utterly s**t ?
Hinges made of nothing but the purest gold
Hardly comes across as an antique of old
Hailing me forth with a luring mist
Hell, if I'd have seen it, eyes open, I'd think I was pissed !
You'd think me insane
Yellow fever's taken hold of my fatigued little brain
Yet I swear it was a vivid as I'd ever thought
Young imagination aplenty, but alcohol naught !
My ideas have scared me before in my sleep
Managed to hide my fears, bury them in my soul down deep
Mock me, they do, when I tell them, it sucks
My own clear images, those daily mind-f***s
Every time I try to lay my head
Each moment I place myself, comfortably in bed
Even therapists say they haven't even a clue
Emptiness here, but I see through the door a sky pale blue