No Proof

When a love is kept secret and then stripped away, how does one conquer and move on from the doubt that it even existed at all?

I made you smile like that...
Didn't I?
But I wasn't allowed to have any proof
Was I?
You were my superhero,
I was the best kept secret,
I was the love in your pocket no one could see,
I can't hold up a picture
And say, "See?!?"
He was happy with me...

I hate when I'm so right,
It's sufficating to read people so well,
But I was blinded by your smile,
You smiled...
Didn't you?

It feels like forever ago,
When you really did mean the words you said,
When your texts weren't just loneliness,
They were from the heart and head,
What am I doing?!
This should have ended
When you left me crying on my kitchen floor,

We should have stepped away,
The changing words and going back and forth,
One visit you don't want to even touch me
And the next you are pulling me on your lap for kisses,
How foolish was I?
How blind to the big picture,

Deep breaths,
You are obviously fine,
Moving on with gracious time,
I must move on too,
Leaving behind my best friend
My protector,
And letting go of what was you and I,

Stand up Alexa!
Wipe those tears away,
Your future is so bright and holds so much grace,
You know the cycle of life,
Losing so many and slowly but surely gaining,
It's time to move forward
And leave another ghost behind in the rubble,

He is no longer what he once was to me,
He is a different person,
A different entity,
I must focus on that,
He is no longer my superhero,
My Superman must be dead to me,

And I must find my own two feet again.

Reviews

[Greg Skura]

Well done Alexa! I enjoyed your deep emotion expressed in this poem and I especially love the last line.
Life is full of heart break and still we go on as we recognize that the love we feel already exists in our hearts, sometimes we require someone to show us how much we have to give!
Thank you for sharing!