I Spiral

I spiral

I sit here cigarette in mouth struggling

I look at my screen and nothing

No words, no letters, no thoughts

I contemplate my reality

My small apartment

My small job

My small life

Even my mind is small

My energy is drained from sitting

Eyes droop with the passing hours

And still nothing

No words, no ideas

It mocks me

The empty mocking page

Delete is my friend

Blank is my default

And still i persist

It`ll come i say just you wait

And wait

And wait

Yet nothing

I wait for nothing