See..

Late at night emotions run through my mind about how the past can cause heart break.

I hope you choke upon your words of pain.

Downsizing the weak in their face, behind their back.

What is your problem?

You made me happy when we were together.

Yet, you cause me pain from your tears.

So you let me go.

Causing my joy to disappear.

I know I've done wrong in the past.

I punished myself.

I felt the pain of you and probably worse.

Just like yours, my heart can only take so much.

I'm fighting to be with you.

I've changed if you can't see.

I've become more honest because of you.

Ever since that day when I became depressed,

I've learned so much in such a small amount of time.

You know I'm sick, yet you rise my spirits.

Then make yourself sick then rip out my heart.

I deserve it.

When you get down I want to talk to you.

To make you feel more loved than what I have hated you in the past.

But you lock me out to dwell in the past.

I can't help to knock, to make you understand I'm here now.

Crying my heart out to you that things will be different.

But you ignore me.

Saying that I will never change because history repeats itself.

I am in love with you.

See it.

Feel it.

Know it.

It's a greater love than what I knew before.

Now I'm giving you your space.

It hurts to read that you almost kissed someone.

But heartache and jealously don't combine.

I have to suck in my tears, put on an attitude and wish you the best.

Cause it's the least I could do, since you done that with me.

I'm not trying to get to your feelings.

I'm just trying to understand me more, and how I feel.

Since you locked me out.

You say you love me,

you don't even know how much it scars me just to hear you say that.

Or read that.

I love you with a passion, and I don't even know if my heart can take anymore.

Are you going to realize how much I'm risking getting hurt and changing myself just to fight to be with you?

Or are you just going to knock me down, tear out my heart, and laugh in my face about how I lost you?

I cry everynight.

Heartbreak is unbearable to get over.