Drained

My disability drains me

Pulls the energy from me

But if I swim 

Instead of sink 

I might be able to think 

My way through the tumultuous waves

Make it through the darkest of days

And head towards the light 

It's hard to walk through some of my days with it

It claws holes into my psyche 

And anxiety pours through them

Over ragged, jagged edges

Sharpens as it moves

It seeks insecure thoughts

And attaches to them

Leaches on 

Acts like a tick 

And bleeds me dry 

But light seeps between the little holes

Hope!

To recognize and see past

The lies my brain feeds me