Wouldn’t notice

I immediately noticed when that short readhead girl from the hallway did cut her bangs,
I noticed when the flowers on my grandma’s table withered,
I noticed that little yellow bow on my sister’s shirt,
I noticed how the orange cat didn’t sit at the bus stop yesterday,
I noticed that the lady who always wore pink shoes had black ones on,
I noticed it all
And yet you really thought I wouldn’t notice that you’re gone?
You knew me long enough to know I would notice,
But you still somehow managed to forget everything we learned through time,
I notice every time you stare,
I notice your face that becomes numb some days,
I notice your little corner smile you do when you’re embarrassed,
I notice when you’re tired and I wish I could just go up to you and give you a hug,
I notice every glance you take at all those girls,
All girls that’ll never be me,
All talks I’ll never hear,
Yes- I can notice, I do notice
But it’s all I can do,
I don’t know who you are anymore,
I don’t know who you think of at the end of the day, I don’t know what you’re feeling and I don’t know if you hate me or just don’t remember I still exist.
I notice, i try not to care but I can’t help the feeling that you’ll come back one day,
It’s draining me but maybe one day it all will be worth it.
I will notice everything about it,
But sure, I’ll let you think I didn’t notice