Few steps behind us

So how did it all happend
Almost yesterday talking about stars
And then one step back we’re somewhere else again,
I’m not sure where,
But I don’t think you know it either.
Maybe we’re not even in the same one.
But if we could make things different,
Change something that made us part,
Then Maybe, just maybe- now we would’ve do all the things you told me about.
You remember? I hope you do.
My fever dreams bring you every time
and I pretend that this is just for a while.
Some days I Sit by myslef and don’t miss you at all, cause I know I’ve been better,
But then come days where I’m thinking if there’s any other purpose to life if not with you.
Yes, it sounds so trivial but I can’t lie about whats going on inside.
I feel like someone took my heart out, threw it into boiling water and then returned it.
Maybe I’m overreacting and will be laughing at it after some time.
I’ll probably do. But For now, we’re few steps behind us.