It’s different

And back when I look at it
It looks so silly,
So trivial,
So unnesscesary.
All the times I thought I’d loose my friends.
I can even call it ridiculous becasue it was So obvious we’ll still be friends.
And I thought with you it’ll be the same.
That they all were right when they were saying that I just think too much. That I feel too much. That I care too much.
I thought that Maybe its true that its ‚not a big deal’- that it’ll be okay with you.
That it was just another time you had to spend some days only with yourself,
Just another time you needed everyone except me.
I thought that when my friends said that i just ‚overthink it’ And that you’ll still be there
That even for a while you’ll care as much as I do.
That you’ll see my exact view.
That for one second, you’ll miss me.
But it turns out that my ‚overthinking it’ was right. You werent going to care. I guess you never actually did.
But I thought that maybe after some time I’ll look at it and think of it just like about every time in the past- ‚So silly, So trivial..’ -
but I don’t think that’ll happend.
Like I said its not the same- you actually proved all that I feared-
All that you promised me wouldnt happend.
So Yeah, I guess it’s different.
Because after all you’re so special.
I should’ve known it’ll be different,
That you’ll be different.
And what most important, that it’ll make me different.