Almost yours

A Poem by Lena

The thought that I could have been in your arms right now,
The feeling of jealousy that my lips could have touched yours even now if I only told you what I felt,
I was scared And you were clueless,
I was attached while you were already cathing feelings For her,
But even if I want you to be happy, to be just what you always wanted to be, it still hurts,
It psyhically And mentally makes me feel weak, like I’ve already wasted my whole life,
Because after all we went through Together I don’t wanna live another day of my life without you,
All the times we were joking about us ending up Together,
All the secrets of yours I kept For myself,
All the Night talks that made me feel So happy,
All the words you told me that used to make me feel So special,
And For a moment I really thought that I can be yours, that it will be just you and me,
Nobody else, just us,
And I know that we could have been perfect,
If life just gave us a chance to prove it,
We could have last forever,
Not like now, stuck between friends And strangers with a memory of lovers that died inside of us,
When I see you taking about her like she’s meant For you, my heart breaks a little bit under the cover of smile,
You found someone who’s yours,
The only problem is that in my heart you’re still mine, I’ve fallen For your words and For your heart,
I’ve fallen So hard that I’m bleeding just to hear your voice in my head again,
Somewhere far away from here, but still closer than ever,
And I’ll never stop missing you,
I’ll never forget us And what we were,
Cause after all…I was almost yours..