chapter three

Today I don’t have to work so I’ll be really bored. Since I have nothing better to do I start to reorganize my closet.

I was fully concentrated when my phone began to vibrate. Benny, my on again off again boyfriend, text me. I had to smile because he text me but my smile quickly disappeared when I read the text:

 

HOE

            But they kept coming.

 

Triflin b***h

Good but now used pussii

Loose trix

I was confused. Where was all of this coming from? I don’t remember pissing him off.

 

Me: Benny where the f**k is all this coming from?I didn’t do s**t this is low

Benny: Cuz ii wuz jus usin yo azz but ii beat it up and now ii don wit yo azz ty 4 da pleasure

Me: Wow really? Delete my number im done with you

Benny: Gladly hoe :)

Me: What the hell is your problem? That is very rude. Would you talk the same way if I went and told my dad and brothers that you’re talking to me like this?

Benny: A bullet to they head ain’t s**t girl.

Just playin gurl ily. I b ova in a bit to get sum :)

Me: Boy you stupid. Don’t bring your rude self over here. Stop texting me

Benny: Ask Mikael this he told me.

What the hell?  Mike is always messing up things… Mikael is the guy I lost my virginity to but I don’t claim actually losing my virginity to him because we were only in bed for about 37 seconds. He ran around telling everybody in town he took my virginity but in all honesty I felt nothing and it didn’t even last a whole minute so not really.

 

That was the end of the conversation. I was so confused. What just happened? Everything was going great yesterday. How do things go so wrong in so short a time? Whatever I’m going to tell my brother or my dad. I’m frustrated. I don’t know what to do. I want to cry. “Octavia come here now! Hurry up!” I screamed to my little sister

She ran in my room and I threw my phone at her. I was trying to choke back the tears.

“Who the hell does he think he is talking to? I’m telling daddy and Shard he gonna get it!” she shouted. I didn’t have anything to say. She was right. I went to my iPhone to the Palringo app. I needed someone to talk to and my closest friends were people I never met in real life, on that app. Well I guess one of them isn’t my friend. I need to talk to Larry, Dani, and Gq.

                       

Me to Larry, Dani, and Gq:

I really need to talk right now. I’m going through some stuff right now. I just need someone talk to ASAP.

 

Larry was the first to reply. I explained it to him what just happened. He was just as speechless as I was. After talking for awhile, he convinced me that Benny isn’t right for me and that I needed better.

 Larry was like my best friend, although we never met and he is only fifteen. He is very mature and makes me happy. I can tell him anything and everything without him judging me. He has known me for 30 days and knows everything about me. I talk to him every day. We have never met in person but he has talked to me and my entire family over the phone. He is from Chicago. The way I can explain him is as a hood nerd. He is very smart, yet very ghetto. He is also a cutie. The problem with Larry is that he is a man-w***e. He flirts way too much with way too many girls.

I always thought of Larry as my online best friend but I didn’t know that my best friend was falling in love with me. He was slowly giving me hints, but I just wasn’t catching on. When I finally did catch on I felt horrible because I told him about all my boyfriends and guy friends and didn’t know that it made him jealous.

Then there was Jimmy a.k.a Gq. He was one of the first guys I trusted on that app. He was kind of a fun guy to talk to. He flirted with me a lot made me giggle cause he and I both knew he was too old and he was no were near my type.  He was fun to talk to though. He would always joke that we would be together once I hit eighteen. Well at least then I thought it was a joke.

There was this one guy Josh that was always so rude to me when Gq was around and Gq would message me and stick up for me always claiming he had my back but never would say anything to Josh. It upset me because I knew he was being a punk. That changed my view of him.

Dani was this Arabian chick. She was the funniest person ever, she is also good to vent to.

It was finally December and on Christmas I’ll be eighteen. Can’t wait, then I can do what I want.