When the Demons Creep Back in

You don't want to feel anything right now

You don't want to feel any type of connection

Avoiding any type of deep emotion

All you crave right now is a distraction

Unable to sleep

Rolling from side to side in your bed

Eyes exhausted

And yet running from the nightmares that may paralyze  you

Anxiety is slowly creeping in

You swear you were alright a couple days ago

You were beginning to make progress

Facing your fears and convincing yourself to finally do something

She tells you that you aren't feeling depressed, but instead that you feeling down

But what would she know when she's always had the habit of neglecting you

Either way you don't fight her petty comments- you know it's pointless to dwell over it..

Unmotivated to do anything, unmotivated to become anything

Even the voices in your head seem not to care about you

They no longer haunt you as if they have given up on you

A familiar feeling of emptiness looms around you

But the feeling that bothers you most is the confusion

Why does all this feel similar & yet so different

Why have the demons returned when I've done my best to change...