The boy with the scars

The boy with the scars found relief in nothing.

The pain stayed with him like a terminal disease,

no matter where he went or what he did.

He was tired of the constant battle.

Gripping the handle with white knuckles,

tears streaming from his eyes,

his brain cloudy with thoughts,

he touched the blade to his arm.

Slowly he sliced down through the flesh,

blood running down his arm onto the floor,

like a red river,

carrying away the pain.

The emotional pain seemed to fade,

only to be replaced with the physical hurt.

To give himself the relief, even if only for seconds,

it was worth it.

No one knew.

No one noticed.

He didn't want people to know.

He didn't want people to notice.

The boy.

The scars.

Both, invisible to the world.

Both, no one caring about.

The boy was me.

The boy is me.

I am the boy with the scars.

Reviews

[Patricia Williams]

One of my really good friends cut. Shes doing better. I just want you to know, I too cried when I read this. Please stop, it really can't be worth it. Jesus loves you, and I know he cries every time you put the blade to your arm.

Please please please stop. I know it's hard; and really, I understand. I was my friend's sole confidant for 2 years as she got better. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you. :)

And I promise, people care about you. They might not be the best at showing it, but they do. :) Heck, I care about you, and I've known you what? Like 2 weeks? You're a really great guy, and I hope you get through this.

[Legolas]

I'm really sorry I made you cry. I know.

I have stopped. I had severe depression for a year and a half. Last January I underwent several treatments of ECT and now I'm better:)

Thank you. I'm very glad I got through it. Thank you for the review.

[Patricia Williams]

Oh I'm soo glad! (you don't have to apologize :)).
It makes me so happy that you got better. It's a long hard road that not many make it through, I'm really proud of you. :)

I know all this is kinda late, but one can always use encouragement! :D

[Legolas]

Thank you:)

I am so glad I'm finally free of depression!

[MusicLover]

this is an amazining write. In a way I am the girl with the scars

[Legolas]

Thanks. Im very sorry about your situation although I do not know what it is

[Brandon S. Whitten]

There can be an end to the conflict and pain. Well written. It will get better.

[Legolas]

Thank you.

[Pax]

pain written in words, so much sorrow drips in your soul. wonderful write.

[Legolas]

Thanks a lot

[Autumn]

It seems different to see similar situation from an oposite sex character. You convey so well the pain, the emotions of the act itself. I'm particularly in love with the end. Stunning poem.

[Legolas]

Thank you Autumn very much.

[Legolas]

So you're borderlined? Auto-destructive behaviour, pain? self wounding? Pain is sometimes so hard, we don't want to feel it anymore, and there must be more pain to let us feel we are alive. Wonderful poem. I'm not borderlined, I just felt the pain.

The scars, the healthy honest ending, made me to add this review... otherwise, I would be thinking it wasn't about you... Beautiful.

E.L.

[Legolas]

Thank you for your words

[Owlgirl]

Amazing, I love the last stanza, awesome use of vocabulary, and altogether just a great poem :D

[Legolas]

Thank you!

[Falling Leaf.]

Such raw anguish. It wrenched at my heart and made me shiver. The only thing I would change is eliminating the comma in the very last line. Other than that, beautifully, yet hauntingly, penned!

[Legolas]

I will do that. Thanks for the review

[Cole Hayley]

A very good piece my friend, the best I've read of you I think. Its a very emotional and powerful piece, it struck me hard. My only suggestion, and its only a manner of opppion is to erase the first four lines. Personally, it sounds out of place and over drammatic mixed in to the great flow you got for the rest of the poem. I had to read it over a second time and ommit the first paragraph, and I enjoyed the flow much better. Just a minor sugestion, still a great piece.

[Legolas]

Yes I think I will do that. Thanks for the suggestion.

[Nath]

Pain. It wages a war against you while causing you to inflict the battle scars on you yourself. A horrible affliction portrayed skillfully.
Depression is a terrible disease, it turns your mind into your worst enemy, leaves you with no remedy nor an ally to fight along with because it makes you feel alone in your war.
I hope one day, things get better for you and that till that day, you will keep fighting and trying to find a way to end this war and to wage it differently.

[Legolas]

Thank you Nath

[Nath]

Welcome!

[Celestial Witch Child]

Great piece... Powerful.

[Legolas]

Thanks