The boy with the scars

The boy with the scars found relief in nothing.

The pain stayed with him like a terminal disease,

no matter where he went or what he did.

He was tired of the constant battle.

Gripping the handle with white knuckles,

tears streaming from his eyes,

his brain cloudy with thoughts,

he touched the blade to his arm.

Slowly he sliced down through the flesh,

blood running down his arm onto the floor,

like a red river,

carrying away the pain.

The emotional pain seemed to fade,

only to be replaced with the physical hurt.

To give himself the relief, even if only for seconds,

it was worth it.

No one knew.

No one noticed.

He didn't want people to know.

He didn't want people to notice.

The boy.

The scars.

Both, invisible to the world.

Both, no one caring about.

The boy was me.

The boy is me.

I am the boy with the scars.

Reviews

[Patricia Williams]

One of my really good friends cut. Shes doing better. I just want you to know, I too cried when I read this. Please stop, it really can't be worth it. Jesus loves you, and I know he cries every time you put the blade to your arm.

Please please please stop. I know it's hard; and really, I understand. I was my friend's sole confidant for 2 years as she got better. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you. :)

And I promise, people care about you. They might not be the best at showing it, but they do. :) Heck, I care about you, and I've known you what? Like 2 weeks? You're a really great guy, and I hope you get through this.

[Legolas]

I'm really sorry I made you cry. I know.

I have stopped. I had severe depression for a year and a half. Last January I underwent several treatments of ECT and now I'm better:)

Thank you. I'm very glad I got through it. Thank you for the review.

[Patricia Williams]

Oh I'm soo glad! (you don't have to apologize :)).
It makes me so happy that you got better. It's a long hard road that not many make it through, I'm really proud of you. :)

I know all this is kinda late, but one can always use encouragement! :D

[Legolas]

Thank you:)

I am so glad I'm finally free of depression!

[Oh Wow, Lovely.]

Wait, you cut?? :( I AM SO SORRY if so.
You made me cry when i read this and i was listening to happy music. You are a VERY PHENOMENAL writer!!! credit were credits due. And again I AM SO SORRY IF SO!i have no room to say this because i don't know what it feels like to be where you are only i can give you my sympathy and try to change your mind. It hurts and i don't even know you. I hope you stop because its not only hurting you but the people who love you but won't say it. (sorry if i sound like a therapist) You are an AMAZING writer :)I'm sorry

[Legolas]

Thank you very much. I do. I am very sorry I made you cry. I am so very sorry.
Thank you.

[Oh Wow, Lovely.]

Oh it's cool !!! an your welcome you deserve it :)

[Deeper La'jik]

I felt the climax. I can level with you real easy. I've been down a similar road. Yo victory is always yours in the end. Keep ya head up and the poems on flow. My intuition tells me you're going to be another success story

[Legolas]

Thanks.

[Summer'sBreeze]

Wow. I have to say this left me breathless at the end. All the raw emotion felt so real.
You have a wonderful way of capturing the feeling into these few words.
Well done.

[Legolas]

Thank you very much.

[Destructive Impulse]

Holy s**t man this is pretty damn good. This definitely got me missing cutting. I definitely can relate. Jeez create imagery and all that crap. And buddy I know what you're goin through so if you ever need to talk im here.

[Legolas]

Thanks. Please don't start up again. Ugh, I'm horrible.

[Destructive Impulse]

Why are ya horrible?

[Legolas]

Because I am.

[AK]

Wow! This poem is really powerful, and eerily real. I liked the way it feels to be inside another person's mind and see things the way he sees it. I guess I don't know how it feels to cut, and why a person would do that, but now I guess I have seen the reasons. The imagery used in the poem is wonderful, it creates stark-clear images in the reader's mind. Similes like 'red river' and 'terminal disease' really take this poem to another level. It is very deep and very, very extremely well written. Seriously, it is wonderful. A creation of true feelings and emotions sculpted beautifully.
But hey, remember, in the end you are not what other people tell you you are. You are who you want to be and from your reviews of my poem and all that I know about you, you are a very kind and good person. Cutting is really not the best option available, though I have no idea what situation that you are in. Please be happy and enjoy your life! Hope you have a good day!
Keep writing!
AK

[Legolas]

Thank you very much. Lots of people don't understand. Thank you again.
Thank you. You are a very kind and caring person as well.Yeah, lots of people don't know my situation. I hope you have a good day as well.

Legolas

[AK]

Hey, there's seriously no need to thank me:) everyone has problems, but at different levels of course. There is nothing you can probably do to stop them and we might of course have a tendency to resort to such means. But trying to stop doing these things shows true strength. Please try to be strong and smile from within, ok? :)

[Legolas]

I try to but it is so hard. I will try:)

[AK]

Knowing that is enough:)

[Darkness]

Good it was really deep.

[Caradoc]

Very powerful. You paint this story with such vivid imagery. It's hard not to feel phantom blades gliding along my skin. Though now it is more from awakened imagination than from memory, for I too once took a blade and allowed it to dance on my flesh. The pain of the narrator is all too obvious, all too abundant. No one should ever be made to feel like this. It is tragic that this subject is written about every day, in song, story, poetic verse, but worst of all in the bodies of those forced to feel the agony you display in this piece.

If you really are the boy with the scars, I hope you find something in your life soon that takes away the pain. I hope that soon what you put into this piece becomes only a memory.

-Caradoc

[Legolas]

Thank you for your words. I am sorry you went through that tough time in your life.

[Caradoc]

Thank you and you're welcome. I would also like to extend my congratulations for this piece winning an award in a contest.

[Legolas]

Thank you again. It's always good to win an award once in a while.

[Caradoc]

Indeed it is.

[Dove]

woah, wow... goodness. This piece is truly amazing and after reading it I was kind of in a daze. The words you used and the way you put the together made this poem what it is and of course the heart wrenching story behind it... I also agree with the other reviwers. I may be only 17 but I've had my battles with depression and the attempts at suicide. Hurting yourself really doesnt fix anything. I'm sorry that you feel that way. And I bet everyone says that... "I'm sorry" but I guess thats all we can do. I think if I were to meet you in person I would just give you the biggest hug ever... wierd I know but true. By the way you're a great writer. I definitely see talent!

[Legolas]

Thank you for the review and your sympathy. I am sorry you have struggled with depression. I really am. I would like a hug. Thank you very much.

[Persephone]

Wow, what an incredible piece.....it is quite haunting, I love how simple the last lines are....there is a stab to them-I know that many can relate to this work-keep writing, it is such a wonderful healing tool

[Legolas]

Thank you very much.