Feeling bitter.

Sharing a story of accepting a relationship for what it is. Using time and energy wisely. (Freestyling)

I’m tired of chasing you. I’m tired of having to exhaust any of my energy on maintaining a relationship with you. I hear you speaking but it all sounds redundant. There is no substance to this. It’s always in some strange way been superficial.

Do you know my family? What is my favorite color? Do you know that I eat a banana with almost every meal? There’s a pretty good chance that you don’t. 

I don’t mean to sound cruel. Really, it’s not my intention. I just want, to be honest with you and with myself. Time does not define the depths of a relationship, digging does. Truly, removing the layers. Allowing yourself to be vulnerable. Listening. 

Sometimes I can’t even believe that you’re one of my oldest friends. I feel like I don’t know you at all. Is it my fault for playing along? At this point, I’m not sure. All I know is that as time passes, the more precious it becomes.

I can’t live an authentic life if I continue traveling down this road with you. Whether you know or it or not this is my goodbye letter. It was good while it lasted. 

Author's Note

Expressing myself about a relationship that feels forced. Questioning, if this relationship was ever real in the first place. Accepting the way I feel about losing this friendship but knowing that my time and energy should be spent in other areas that bring truth to my life.

Reviews

[emipoemi]

"Do you know that I eat a banana with almost every meal"
"As time passes, the more precious it becomes"
Those two lines are respectively the funniest and the most powerful. I couldn't contain my laughter at the former, and with the latter I felt a whoosh of an aura, it was that much of a powerful line. So true!! This letter, as it should be better known , is in many other ways amazingly structured and constructed, and really hits the nail on the head at every major point. Well done!

[Lechusa]

Thank you!! This was deeply personal for me, I'm glad you found it powerful.