Fall Away

A poem written to myself, feeling the guilt which accompanies betrayal of one's closest friend. Original date: unknown

Throw yourself into a pit of anger and despair
In the end, the truth is that you really didn't care
Before, during, and after - all along
you knew what you were doing was so wrong

So break through all the windows and shatter all the glass
Watch through blood-mixed tears as they fall from your grasp
You've done things an apology really just can't say
Instead, your slowly weakened grip makes them all fall away
fall away.

The sounds of sobs echo down the streets of DC
the fault of all of this will slowly fall on me
I've answered the big question - should I still be alive?
Close your eyes, count to three and jump to take your dive

Truth - it is a virtue, "the truth will set you free"
but freedom is a freedom that won't apply to me
I look into your eyes and you know that I'll let go
But I should be falling! It's the only fact I know!