Looking Glass

Ten and a half years ago

When I was just this little girl

My daddy was taken away from me

Standing here today you wouldn't believe

All the things I have been through

You'd think it was just a dream

Even if I tried to explain it to you

You wouldn't understand any of it

Not because you haven't been in my shoes

Or have felt the same way that I have

It's been this all seems so damn unreal

And a little child shouldn't go through that

I'm now twenty years old 

Staring in the mirror asking myself

Would daddy recognize me if he saw me

Or would he look at me all confused

Does he still look the same as when he died

Or has been aging all the same living life

As if he never died with a daughter same as me

Just living a different life 

All the pictures I take are to hide my pain

In a picture you can fake the smile

You can alter the surrounding you're in

And you can determine the emotion in it

But inside your heart you know that you're broken

Unsure of what you're doing anymore

Walking about this place like a corpse

Just waiting for the day he calls home

Too the other side of that looking glass

Where the world seems so much brighter

And all the pain you've ever felt disappear

And everyone you've ever loved is right there

And you have this life you always wanted

All the things your heart desires is right there

Just on the other side of that looking glass

Where all your wishes and dreams come true

No more tear stained pillows

No more nightmares dancing in your head

No more sleepless nights and long days

Walking down the street in a neighborhood

That you're not use to anymore

Everything around you seems so colorless

It's growing so dark and grey 

Wilting away to absolutely nothing but dust

You don't understand what is going on 

And you're so loosing your hope

And you feel like you can't break

You're falling to your knees in the middle of the street

Screaming out for ears that can't hear you

No one is looking your way 

Just ignoring you and walking away from you

Just on the other side of that looking glass

Where all your wishes and dreams come true

No more pain to keep you awake

No more depression keeping you from smiling

No more blank stares into the space

Just go on and take a step through the looking glass