Hollow Victory

justifications to my self

I am bereft
And mired in slime
All I have left
Is to deny you my time

I'd say it's a lie
If I even suspected
But how can I deny
What you have rejected?

If I wasn't so full
Of this god awful need
I'd see my way through
This Hollow Victory    


                                            ...indeed...

Author's Note

struggling with conflicting emotions about a potential meeting with an recent ex, that I expect to be canceled at the last moment.

Reviews

[Shutterbug]

It is always hard dealing with the Ex especially when you still have feelings for that person. It is a good thing to get your feelings out. I know that it has helped me out a lot with my ex. Just remember there are people out there that can help or at least listen.
Very good piece. Thanks for putting your emotions out there for us to read.

[Coyote Poetry]

Ain't no real victories when the anger and guns are draws. A excellent poem. The hollow victories leave no winner. Only bodies trying to get up. A outstanding poem.
Coyote

[PaperHearts]

It's always frightening to be in a situation where you never quite know how things are going to turn out... to be trapped in your self-created box of conflict where this fear is the only thing that holds you back. I really liked this write, and thought that your choice of words were really effective in describing this feeling. The lines flowed so effortlessly, and I particularly loved the way you ended your piece. :)
~PaperHearts

[Subjective Sanity]

Great work. I especially love the first stanza and the ending word. Well put.

[Ms. Gruye]

i was an interesting choice to capitalize the Hollow Victory, that makes a statement all on its own.

I was a little confused by the first stanza. I was uncertain how being spent financially would leave the narrator with the only option of ignoring the ex. I get the emotionality spentness, but ultimately "Having spent my last dime" felt illogical (unless of course you were speaking of another sort of dime....which would then make sense, but I would clarify that)

viva la

[Emily B]

the struggle is the thing that gives us the most growth, we learn the most lessons there . . . and the more we learn, well, you probably know all about that :)