Emotionless

Tonight I'm emotionless 
Lord knows I'm blessed
But tonight I'm feeling emotionless 
I'm tired of feeling the stress
I know everybody has a past
But I feel like I can't shake this mess 
I have faith that things will get better 
But the way I'm feeling right now I could care less
Sick of these sorry a*s jobs that aren't getting me enough cheddar
Surrounded by love ones but I still feel alone
Wondering what life would be like if I was gone
You ever felt like that?
Emotion filled are the words that I've spat 
But tonight I'm feeling emotionless 
Forget the stress and the weight of being oppressed
Cause I'm feeling emotionless 
Wanting to drop these chains and transgress 
Feeling like my optimism is waning
The sadness of hopelessness is straining 
Alcohol and weed is what I try to refrain from 
Because afterwards the misery still remains
Some people use it to escape reality
But to me that's weakness 
Because in reality your only causing brutality to your mind body and soul 
So I'm sold on using this mescudi and pad to roll on
We as human beings need to faced these problems head on
And If you ain't feeling that
Then you might as well be a rat 
In a cage that is living in a dazed, crazed filled world 
And you can have that s**t 
Cause I'm above that b***h
Straight up ditched my old ways of thinking 
Now I'm so wired from all these waves of new ideas that I'm ideological surfing
So I say RIP and good riddance to materialism
As I set sail for this journey of realism