NudeA Poem by Guru X The Slam PoetA poem about how life, family and destiny fucked me over.
I was borne into a hateful earth
Before birth I was supposed to die Or maybe my mother lied But who cares when everybody just wants the money My father left me with nothing I felt nothing, numb to it Depression kept creeping in I ignored it I stop and looked to see if the mirror would ever show me love But all it did was show me evil a lil preview of what's above My mind drifts to the river of fire, a Hade's dove Or crow rather My life was on low path of death I moved around since I was seven I didn't really care till I had health problems They thought I had a virus my father had passed on But not to my mother I was conceived in the past form Of what was... And then my grand mama took me in And loved me just like a mother I loved her back coz she would ever give up on me I move away then I had to learn to live alone Speak words over the phone Remember to her I've grown 3 years later she passed I couldn't cry or breakdown like everybody else But I shut down myself To protect the people around me Told me just be strong, just move along remove the thorn In my heart and watch me bleed a colour never perceived by humans thoughts, Though I proceed to live Well it might look like I did The problem is I didn't Almost killed myself, I did but not physically My mental, I'm stuck in between a parable of hate and malcontent I do debate that I do feel affection, especially now of late I watched my mom get beaten by a man battling with his weight I wanted to kill him but mama screamed and told me to wait So i walked out, I got mugged and beaten the same night and two weeks later I was dumped for the same plight,love I'm not over it, it's been three years since I felt it She took it and stabbed it and let it die, As if she practised... Am I being punished for what my dad did or what my fam did Is it my fault I was born in people hating the same shi* Or each other, even brothers wanted to take me down and show me it I refused and they called me b***h But I keep it hidden behind a smile A cool facade for me before I cause my own demise... © 2013 Guru X The Slam PoetAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on June 11, 2013 Last Updated on June 11, 2013 AuthorGuru X The Slam PoetJohannesburg, Gauteng, South AfricaAboutThe universe's b*****d child. more..Writing
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