Forgiven

For so long I've felt lost and weak
Alone and deprived
Depressed, struggling to survive.
The Lord was my strength for so long, 
Until I let my gaurd fall.
I stopped trying to fight the devil; 
Allowing him to tell me what's right which was wrong. 
Wanting to feel like a rebel,
To jump off my pedastle and cross over a forsaken wall.
The wall of saved ones leaving the church, returning after sinfull acts.
The wall I promised never to cross. 
I was stuck to choose either or, to keep Christ or listen to the devil when he whispered "make room for one more".
But what I didn't know was that with the devil there Jesus would have to go;
I thought I had it under control.
Slowly my audience of the church seemed judgmental to the core,
So I stood back, being judged no more.
While the Lord kept trying, I consisted on denying 
The little soft whispers which spoke of me needing Him more.
Now that I'm older, sin has over ruled
The person I said I wouldnt be 
Took the identity of me.
Shamefully I have never said that audibly,
But the the Lord is back in my heart and I finally feel at peace.
The lord is my cure
With the lords sweet voice directing me to "go and sin no more"

Reviews

[Tai Ryens]

Powerful words, and a wonderful story to be told in a poem. I love the flow, and the story really makes me think.
What if you just kept giving in to evil, and you kept letting in more and more demons? Would you be able to fight them and return back to Christ? No one knows.
I absolutely loved the ending, how you returned to the Lord, and those last words echoed in my mind far after I've read it.
Amazing write.

[Spacefruit]

This is very powerful. I can tell the theme is about forgiveness (from the title) and redemption from the context. Great job. It really had me thinking about my own beliefs and my own concept of self.