Remembrance

Every time I think of you,

I cry.

It is not in relation to an unpleasant memory,

But  the remembrance of your love.

Sometimes I feel as though it would have been better

If I had died.

You’ve touched so many hearts,

I’ve touched few.

But I do know I still love you,

I will always miss you.

 

When you were in the hospital asleep,

I wept.

But when you woke,

I never shed a tear.

I knew that if you saw me cry

That you would assume I was expecting your death.

But it was just the opposite.

I prayed and pleaded for your life

But I believe my family lacked faith.

But I never did.

 

When you were numb from the medicine,

I was there.

When you didn’t recognize me,

I was there.

But at your death,

I wasn’t there.

I got picked up late and missed my chance to say good-bye.

But I KNOW that you are watching through Heaven’s floor.

Watching my life,

Wishing me well,

Yearning for the life that you know I am capable of attaining.

 

I pictured you being at my college graduation.

I imagined you being at my wedding,

Taking that one slow dance with me.

I dreamt of you holding a grandchild from me.

But this can’t happen

Won’t happen.

And I miss you.

 

I know we were not blood related,

But you were and still are

My closest grandpa I have.

You have always loved me for who I was

Not what you wanted me to become.

At home I lacked the feeling of warmth,

Of being loved

Like I was a mistake.

Just misunderstood.

But at y’alls house

I felt loved.

Embraced.

Safe.

Wanted.

 

I know God took you for a reason.

And just as you wrote in your Bible,

You are in Heaven greeting the newcomers,

I just can’t wait for my greeting.

And I love you grandpa.

                I miss you grandpa.

                                I just want to see you again.

 

Love always,

Your granddaughter,

Laura Renee Robuck

Reviews

[Murtuza]

The language is so pure and beautiful. The honesty of confessing your guilt of not being present is truly touching. I love the innocence that you've portrayed with a granddaughter's love. I love this.
Sometimes writing from our heart gives more emotion and feel into our works. This is a wonderful tribute to your grandfather and I'm sure he'd be proud of you.

[NightShade]

The emotions behind this go far beyond limited words. This is a piece that truly touches the heart and yeah... Wow!

[sushi]

Beautiful....

[Coyote Poetry]

A powerful and beautiful story. A wise person know the good people in a life. Your Grandfather sounds like a good man. I like the description of his kindness. The best we can do sometime is to do the right things to make your Grandfather know. You are doing alright. A outstanding poem.
Coyote

[Sukriti Suki]

You are writing from the heart and this one surely touches many.

[Little Abbey]

I wrote a poem for my grandfather as well. Very sweet poem!

[deeps]

So very lovely, a wonderful tribute..

[Saraplenty]

What a beautiful tribute to your grandfather.

[The old me]

Very beauiful. I can see your love for your grandfather very much in this. The best poems are the ones you can relate to and are well spoken. Your poem is both, so very good job in my mind.