An Explosion of Feelings

Inside my chest there is a ticking bomb-

counting down the seconds

until I finally explode,

until everything I have kept bottled up

comes rising to the top,

threatening to leave destruction in my wake.

But I have had so much practice

over the years

that I know how to make it stop.

 

I try to be the strong one-

the pillar that holds everything up

but I always end up

making myself feel down.

I know it is no-one’s fault

but my own,

that I do this

because I care about everyone

but sometimes,

even surrounded by a sea of people

I know I am loved by,

I still can’t help but feel alone.

 

But I’ve always been a good girl-

I have mastered the art

of keeping things hidden

at the very back of my mind.

And I’ve gotten so good at it lately

that sometimes even I don’t know

the reason why I cry.

 

I have discovered

that the mind works in weird

and sometimes

not-so-wonderful ways,

that really

each sunrise

is just a reminder

that beautiful things occur every day.

 

And I have figured out

that words

are so much better on paper

than coming out of my mouth.

So I shall allow the pen

to be the metaphor for the bomb

in this particular poem

because I prefer my explosions of feelings

to be written rather than spoken.

Reviews

[Pete]

Very honest, real & introspective. Keep writing dear soul.

[Daisie Vergara (Dhaye)]

This is sad but beautifully written, young lady. I can relate to it.
I believe that it is better to cry all our pain and troubles alone than to speak them out..because many people would be affected. When we care too much about the people around us, we choose to sacrifice our own happiness than to see them unhappy.
But one day, your inner strength will teach you to protect your own heart, and to fight for your own happiness.