I believed
in you when I was younger. I would pray to you all the time and hoped that you
would answer. I never asked for anything, I just treated you like a friend-
someone to confide in and tell all my secrets to. Because I was alone; I was
the girl who never got invited to parties, the girl who had to eat her lunch in
the school toilets. But I guess you had more important matters to attend to,
because I never heard from you or even had a sign that you had listened to my
prayers. So I started to lose my faith in you a little bit more every time
someone avoided me in the school hallways. I branded myself an atheist and
people told me that my life would be so much better if I believed in you, that
all my prayers would be answered.
But I continued
my life with low faith, holed up in my room with only a book for company. Until
one day, by chance encounter, I met the person that I want to spend the rest of
my life with. The person who loved me for exactly the way I was and was my best
friend as well as my lover. I realized then that you must have been listening
to me all along, but you were just waiting for the right moment to bring this
special person into my life; someone who you knew would never hurt me. So I’m
sorry, God, for ever doubting you, because I should have realized that you wouldn’t create the
world just to ignore the people in it.