This Isn't An Aplogy Letter, But You'll Forgive Me One Day

I said that I was thinking of writing a story from the boy's point of view of the story 'I Wanted To Say This to You Before You Left, but the Depression Made Me Numb.' Well, this is it.

I used to think that I could be the guy to make a girl happy, the guy who rescues the damsel in distress. How naïve I was to believe that. When I got to know you, I realized that you weren’t just sad, you were far beyond the abyss, and seeing as I’m being honest here, it scared me. I was an idiot to even think that I could just get rid of your depression by telling you that I love you. It was wrong of me to think of you like some sort of experiment. But the way you held on to me so tightly made me realize that you thought I could be the one to save you too; you were so certain that only my love could heal your brokenness. I looked up depression on the internet, and it said that most people who are depressed don’t even know why. So it made me wonder, if you don’t know why you are depressed, how could you be so sure that I could heal you? If there’s one thing I know about happiness, it’s that only you can make it happen. I am merely a man; with no capability of driving away your demons, for only you hold the power to reach inside your mind and demolish them. Please don’t say that I gave up on you. I just wanted you to be like a bird, not an anchored-down ship that you were becoming. I loved you to the Heavens and beyond, and honestly, I still do. But it was tearing me apart to see you believe in me so much when I knew that I couldn’t save you. Deep down inside of you, there is a warrior and believe me; she doesn’t need any man to make her come out and slay that beast. Someday, you’ll look back on the wreckage of your depression and you’ll hold your own hand, because you’ll realize that when I left you, that warrior inside of you stayed. You are your own saviour. So this isn’t an apology letter, but you’ll forgive me one day.

Reviews

[Natalia]

I really loved this poem. I liked that you wrote it from the guy's point of view. Somehow it made it more... honest. It's a beautiful piece of writing

[Rose of many colours]

Moving on is the best remedy. god bless

[sonnie ibadah]

beautifully written, powerful emotionals battling within....gret work!

[Moniba]

I read both sides, and i'm impressed! Very well=written and understood:)

[Anand Sehgal]

good psychoanalysis . Commendable job :) :) Liked the way you planned it.
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[Lyn Anderson]

Now this is what I am talking about - your ability to see both sides of the coin - beautifully articulated. Bravo girl!

[annabellee]

great write out of the guy's perspective. Emotional and powerful. :)

[Ruth]

It is refreshing to see it written from the male perspective, men get too much harshness at times...this is emotionally wrenching and well voiced hon x

[MsJewel]

When the reader can feel the emotion in your words you know you have written something well....and I could feel the emotion and the frustration. Great writing my friend.

:) Julie

[wordman]

this is an exploding relationship full of anxiety
you can`t control anything not even your own destiny just flow with it
you will be much happier