If There Was an Award for the Best Liar I Would Win It Hands Down

I told my first lie when I was 7 years old;

I told my mother that my sister had broken her antique vase when it was really me

And from that day, the lies started to slip from my lips as easily as soap slides out of your hand.

When the teachers at school asked me if I was being bullied, I told them no,

While my tormentor was miming insults to me in the background

And when my parents found out that I used to self-harm and told me never to do it again,

I held the blade behind my back as a substitute for crossing my fingers

And whenever I smiled, that was a lie too.

Now months down the line, I tell everyone that I’m ok, that I have recovered

And I have, really;

It no longer feels like it takes all of my muscles to smile

And when my parents ask me if I still self-harm, I mean it when I say “no”

But when it’s dark and I have just my thoughts for company

A sudden sadness engulfs me;

I lie there and I just feel so empty, like my soul has been lifted out of my body

And I get an urge to pick up that toxic blade and end it all.

So I guess that being ok is the best lie that I ever told

So good, I even started to believe it myself.

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

The more someone tells a lie the more it is believed...A splendid poem ...:)...........

[Liz]

I really like the idea of this. It's relatable. However, I would like to see it further developed, maybe with some more literary elements.
Good write!

[Bob Sherunkle]

Very thought provoking.I think sometimes we all need to take a good look at ourselves. Great write

[annabellee]

This is a great and emotional write.
Keep up the strength and the good work :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Tell enough lies and you don't know where the truth begins and the lies end.A most powerful piece:)

[Tennessee]

"So good, I even started to beLIEve it myself." Kid, that line right there explains it all and shows the brain can be tricked by something of it's own creation.

[MsJewel]

Bravo. You are very brave. You have faced the dark side and found light. You have learned to be honest with yourself and that is the first step. - I too at one time hid behind a smile, refusing help from those that love me - and I learned that lying to myself, pretending everything was fine only made it worse. I'm clapping really loud for you~
:) Julie

[wordman]

well this is the evil side of life lying to you still he is the master liar
run his a*s off and smile you are a writer

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

i love this its very emotional, and really deep. I really enjoyed reading this.
You must have been going through alot, to tell so many lies, and feel that way.
Seems like all ends well though, and life for you is better now. Hope it stays that way :)

[Abeer until dawn]

The Worst of all is to lie to yourself. no one is completely honest, everyone has lied once or maybe million times in thir life! But not to the person standing in the mirror.. here where alerts start to go off, n' we must start to pay more attention!

Love your idea,