If There Was an Award for the Best Liar I Would Win It Hands Down

I told my first lie when I was 7 years old;

I told my mother that my sister had broken her antique vase when it was really me

And from that day, the lies started to slip from my lips as easily as soap slides out of your hand.

When the teachers at school asked me if I was being bullied, I told them no,

While my tormentor was miming insults to me in the background

And when my parents found out that I used to self-harm and told me never to do it again,

I held the blade behind my back as a substitute for crossing my fingers

And whenever I smiled, that was a lie too.

Now months down the line, I tell everyone that I’m ok, that I have recovered

And I have, really;

It no longer feels like it takes all of my muscles to smile

And when my parents ask me if I still self-harm, I mean it when I say “no”

But when it’s dark and I have just my thoughts for company

A sudden sadness engulfs me;

I lie there and I just feel so empty, like my soul has been lifted out of my body

And I get an urge to pick up that toxic blade and end it all.

So I guess that being ok is the best lie that I ever told

So good, I even started to believe it myself.

Reviews

[ToneWolf]

lol this poem rocks, I don't know any better way to say it!

[shangala]

hahaha you got it right!!!!

[FlatLineBeauty]

This was very honest, so I guess Best Liar, can't go to you. So many are like this... Myself included. Lying sometimes comes natural and east just because you don't want people to know what is really going on. xo Winter

[Simon Welsh]

Gah, self harm is a b***h. Trust me, I know. I understand the sentiments conveyed.

[The Hampstead Poet]

This is such a statement of human nature, and something we can all relate to, where we lie to others just to tell ourselves we're OK when we're not.

[zaneybear]

i just love this because i for one and so many others can relate to the lies we tell ourselves and others to make everyone including ourselves believe we are fine. truly beautiful piece i loved it.

[❤ Maggie ❤..]

I sincerely hope you haven't gone through this yourself..:/ If you had I'm so very sorry. It's really not an easy thing at all. People think "Oh they do it for attention." But that's not true. It's a real emotion. Fear, depression, anxiety, sadness. It's all there and you can't escape it. The best thing to do would be to keep telling yourself that it'll be okay. 'Cause it may not seem like it, but there really are people out there who care. You portrayed the emotions in this quite fantastically. I think all in all, this was a good write.

[Laura Harrison]

I have suffered from depression before, but thankfully no-one has ever left me because of it. Thank you so much for the amazing review :)

[❤ Maggie ❤]

Good, I'm glad :) and you are most welcome, anytime :)

[David Burke]

I know exactly how you feel, I have the same problem and trust me it helps to surround yourself with people you know care and want you around it's so much easier and I hope you find the comfort and peace you're searching for kido You can message me if you need me I'm always here

[Travis Gibson (poetic h..]

The most tortured of us are indeed the best liars, plastic smiles and guile expressions. This took courage, and I applaud you on this piece.

[sonnie ibadah]

a little lie goes a long way...sometimes i'd rather believe that there cn be a good lie especially if it't told with the honest intention to mke us or the people we love feel better. great poem!