I Named My Loneliness After You

I can’t eat without thinking about the way you always held the knife in your left hand instead of your right.

And I can’t go to sleep before saying “I love you” to thin air, as if you might miraculously appear in the space beside me and reply “I love you too.”

The cracks in between my fingers feel empty without yours slotted into them

And my heart yearns to beat for you again.

I have written over 30 letters to you that I will never send

Because I am rehearsing their contents so I know what to say to you when you finally come back to me.

I stare at the pictures in my hand and remember how happy we were…

But then I recall the night that you left

How you told me that I was just a pick-me-up to you and your one last regret.

I know that I deserve someone miles better than you

But your arms were my safe haven

And you made me complete

Nostalgia has never been this bitter-sweet. 

Reviews

[David Burke]

This seems to be a problem a lot of people have, you did a great job of emulating it kido :)

[Michael G. Smith]

A lot of good sentiments here, but the poem still feels raw.

[Sarah Lynn]

Yet again another beautifully well written poem! I just love your work!

[Rose of many colours]

The Character has gotten stuck.Has a sense of loss but possess a unique sense of belonging. This is what I am getting out of this write..God bless writer

[Jack...]

Very nicely done. This is filled with a longing that the hearts bears so sadly.

[annabellee]

Another fantastic poem. You're very talented. Your poems always express your feelings so well and are just touching and well written.
keep up the great work :)

[Jordan]

This is a really good poem... really felt your emtion...

[Caesar]

Is this from real life? Your words speak to me. I felt this way before. Really like your writing girl

[Alexis]

"I stare at the pictures in my hand and remember how happy we were..." many people came into our lives - and they are either a lesson or a blessing. I, learned that the hard way.

In many ways do I wish all this came true to me again, but after they left, I now trust no one. I can understand if you say that it was a stupid idea, but what they did showed me a new perspective on life.

Such great writing comes from such a great poet as yourself. Enjoyed reading your writing, and always will. So please, keep sending me reading requests. (: