Time to Go

I found this poem that my friend wrote, and it really spoke to me, so I thought I'd share it.

I close my eyes

For just a second

Wondering what to do.

I close my eyes

For just a moment

Thinking about you.

I close my eyes

Once again

Willing the pain away.

I close my eyes

One more time

Trying to forget the day.

 

I close my mouth

Biting down

On my tongue once more.

I close my mouth

Seeking out

Physical pain like before.

I close my mouth

To stop myself

From playing that stupid game.

I close my mouth

To keep myself

From calling out your name.

 

I take a breath

Suck in deep

To try to clear my mind.

I take a breath

Search again

But pain is all that I can find.

I take a breath

But it hurts too much

And once again I close my eyes.

I take a breath

It hurts so bad

But why am I surprised?

 

I close my eyes

I close my mouth

Breathe in through my nose.

I close my eyes

I close my mouth

But the pain still shows.

I close my eyes

I close my mouth

Bury my face in the pillow.

I close my eyes

I close my mouth

My breathing becomes shallow.

One more time

I look again

Searching hard for you.

One more time

I try so hard

What am I to do?

One more time

I look away

And know it’s time to start.

One more time

The tears leak out

As I push the knife into my heart.

 

No more words

From this lost soul

From this shattered girl.

No more words

For that sweet boy

For the man that I love still.

No more words

From me to you

Not a single syllable.

No more words

It’s time to go

I won’t keep making you miserable.

 

With my last breath

I’d like to say

Something I don’t want you to forget.

With my last breath

I’d like to say

That I have no regrets.

With my last breath

There’s one more thing

I really need to do.

I take my last breath

Look into your eyes

And tell you one more time, ‘I love you.’

~Trina Lynn

Author's Note

I'm leaving it how she wrote it, obviously, because it's not mine to change. I DID ask her if it was okay that I posted it, and she said that it was. I wouldn't have posted it otherwise.

Reviews

[Eliza Mae]

Tell Trina Lynn to keep writing her heart out, pouring every detail of emotion into her words. This is beautiful and sad. I can relate perfectly. Also, tell Trina thank you for allowing you to post this, it was a read I thoroughly enjoyed. :)

[Saerdes Rae]

I certainly will tell her that. She writes a lot, and I talked to her about getting herself set up on here, but she doesn't think anyone would like what she writes. Maybe this will change her mind.

[Eliza Mae]

I hope so. I was skeptical at first, too, but criticism will help you grow and positive feedback will encourage you to write more. It's a win-win.