Standing Out by Not Fitting In

"I was born with the intent to fit-in to society; but as I grew I learned that standing out was my destiny"

It was never my intentions to be the person I am today. When I was younger I had high hopes for my future and my dreams overcame into reality. I did not beckon for a change in status nor did I want to embrace the world to which I was given. My heart and mind was never in agreement to what I was going to become and I was content with the battle between the two. At one moment I would count on my heart to get me through a time of betrayal and hurt; and at others I would solely anticipate my mind to give me guidance in my confusion and misunderstandings of the world around me. It was not planned that I would walk with a fictional figure and surrender my all to a myth. I never intended for my good luck to be categorized as blessings and my belief in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny as faith. Who would have thought my thinking would have me here. The road I chose to travel was way off course and too far down stream for me to turn back in middle of my journey; and yet here I am at a fork in the road. One leads to a destination I know nothing of and the other leads to a place I've waited to be since birth. As I stand here searching for a sign in the right direction a puppy of all breeds comes up to me and just sat beside my right foot. I did not consider to question its motive or to justify its presence. I just decided to do what he did and sat down beside him with a wondrous mind and a empty heart. My eyes have deceived me before so trusting them were not in the stars, and my nose smelled scents unfamiliar and mysterious so counting on it to get me through was beyond reproach. My hands could not feel and my tongue was silently mute to the words floating around so talking to myself was not an option. Where would I go from here? The puppy barked and I turned to look to where his voice carried. Clouds covered the sky and the ground beneath me began to shake. I was not afraid even though my bones trembled throughout my skins contact and I stood in wonder. The puppy beside me started to fade in existence and the pages within my mind's chapter erased the history of my pass. A blank stare took over my temples and I was beyond the world's imagination back into the phantom's realm. Everything seemed more extravagant and radiant and still I felt outside the box of reality. The truth of my destination started to reveal itself just beyond the veil and I realized my worth was taken for granted by my own self-conscious delivery. The dreams I once shared with myself was reality and the path I was told to take was truth; yet here I stand now alone and looking in the opposite direction of the journeys which awaited my presence. I took one step and then another and I realized where I was headed was nowhere and everywhere all at once. I did not take the road less traveled and I did not take the highway of occupied viewpoints. I started for the woods. Trees of wisdom, dirt of hurt, birds of freedom, snakes of destruction, gravel of grace, and ants of worship surrounded my world and I let the unknown capture my flesh. Before long I could make out sunlight at a peak in the forest yet the clouds continue to sway above my head. I could feel the heat of sunshine yet the leaves blew with fierce might. I could hear angelic sound waves just ahead yet demonic forces of strength played around my lopes. I stopped and stared at a future I did not plan, at a dream I did not see, and a hope I did not believe in. I turned around to see where I've come from and realized the path behind me was clear as the ocean's stream. My footprints left their mark and pedals fell around the indentation without harming the human essence left within the seam. I turned back around to finish the walk for which my legs insisted on leading me and saw the puppy reappear in the distance. It bark was stronger, its outline was bigger, and its eyes glowed with florescent light. I continued to walk toward the estranged friend and the light up ahead grew brighter with every step. "Welcome" boomed from around me and I hesitated the steps ahead yet my feet ignored my body's warning and continued to walk in stride. I looked back and saw the path left behind me as I traveled this journey of mystery. I had created my on path and knocked down enough obstacles along the way for others to come behind me. Where will this unpaved road will lead is not yet known but soon this darkness will turn to light and all shall be shone to me. This was not my plan, I did not have this intention, and yet here I am. One step away from the light and the darkness whispers sweet-nothings that once capture my attention; however, this time I was awakened by the rush of adrenaline pounding in my chest. The blood within my body froze and as I stepped into the light I woke from my dream. My bedroom walls welcomed me home with pictures of past travels and quotes of inspiration. My bed embrace my body's warmth as the covers wrestled the closeness. I blinked again to ensure I am where I am. My dog jumps on the bed and gives a look of wonder at my untimely alertness. I look back and for once speaking from experience of a dream I knew I quoted, "I may not know the road to take but the road not taken is the path left awaken for a stranger's call; I now know what I must do. Stand out by not fitting In".