A Gradmothers Love

Free verse

In the watery darkness

that

surrounded me

in my chamber

of new life

waiting

to be realeased

I could feel

you there

caring for me

in every way

I had not

been born yet

still in the

dark warmth

and in its security

You talked to me,

rubbed me

in my watery

world from the

outside in circles

and comforted my mother

as

she was carrying me

My father unknown

to you or me

Only

my mother knows

but her silence will

be forever mute

to us

Unconditionally 

you loved

me with no

thought to why.

As I grew

you watched

and measured me,

making sure I

grew straight and tall

  Over the years you

tried to teach me all

I should know as a

grandaughter

a woman

and a friend

 I played in the

plowed fields

next to where the

garden flowers grow tall

and free

as you watched

me walking barefoot

in the grass

from

the window

in the kitchen with

grandpa

beside you

smiling as you

gazed upon me

 I picked

the flowers in

your garden as a

surprise for you

You would

smile and

tell me how beautiful

they were because

I had given

them to you

That made them

the prettiest

flowers under

the earth's sky

When I had grown

you smiled as

I went away

on my own

knowing

I had grown

When I came

in the door

any given day

greeting me with

a warming smile
Letting me know you

were still

watching over me

You never stopped

caring for me

all this time.

All the mistakes I had

 made

you only smiled

and made me feel

ok with them and

loved me still you

did not condemn me

or yell at me but

taught me to

learn from them

with pride and

understanding

My day came

later in life

I left and moved

farther away

to find my

own dreams

I know I made

you proud

although

I knew you would

miss me

but I would

be back to

show you

my growth

as a young

adult and

how your

nurturing

made me what I am

today strong

and pround

with independance

maybe too much

to need anyone

even in love

You were always with

me in my thoughts

day to day and

in all I did with

what you had taught

me

you were there

smiling with pride

and love

Even being

so far away from me

you were still there

in my heart

The things you

had taught me were

in my mind and

reminded me of you
I could see you smile

as you know
I have learned all

you taught me
I have found

a way to walk in this

world and I have

always smiled

when I think of you
As the years

have passed

I have seen you

many times

some when

i had to talk

to you about things

that confused

me so much,

things that hurt me,

things I didn't

understand

and you were

the only one

who understood

me and my feelings

I saw your age

showing

in your

smile and around

your eyes,

as you were

now alone

with Grandpa gone

but you had

known love

through your days

here with him

and with us,

this was better

than not

knowing love at all

even though

that love is gone

its memories

will remain

here in your

heart forever

I saw you smile

as I looked into your

eyes as I had many,

many times before

now as

I asked you about

love and its nature

I trusted your advice as

i knew it nurtured

my confusion

and was the right

advice for me

as it has been

since I was little

in the golden days

Time has played

the time trick on me

 is it really that

time for you?

Is it time for you

to sleep forever

and go

somewhere new?

You will not

be here to

smile at me

anymore

or to guide

me through

my rough times?

Who will nurture

me when I doubt?

who will listen when

I don't make sense?

Who will answer my

questions when

the small things

grow so large?

Who will tell me that

my love for him

is right

I hear your voice and words

reminding  me of

what you last said to me

 

 my work here is done

 I go to be with my love now

  my dear

 I will always be with you forever

more in heart and in your soul

I am there head to toe do

not ever forget the fun

we had

we cried aloud

and hugged each other

because it was right

to share this love with

someone and you will find that he

is near for you to share also

I will pass along

to what waits beyond

with a smile

I will always love you

and be with you

heart and soul

  My dear I will live

in your heart forever

remember me

and smile at

the good times and the

love we shared

I hope that you are

truly loved as you have

loved me

goodbye and

don't be sad

for I am with

you always

Goodbye

Lasla Moore 2009

Reviews

[Erotic Goddess]

Over the years you
tried to teach me all
I should know as a
grandaughter
a woman
and a friend

WOW!!! You must have spent so much time on this piece. I am impressed with the rhythm and flow that you have in this piece, and the detail is amazing. Several pieces of this reminded me of my own grandmother...a wonderful woman, gone now, but never forgotten. What a heartfelt tribute.

xxoxx
Goddess

[THE LOST ROSE]

It is a wonderful feeling to have love shared with you two generations ahead of you. You honored that love wonderfully. The length, I thought I would get lost but it captured me from the begining to the end. Wonderful, Fantastic, Great, Awesome okay I am done! -smile-

[Ladysue]

What a beautiful sentiment, tribute! Very moving. It flowed well too! Nicely done!