I Don't But

What would you do if I told you I wanted to die?

Would you think I was being dramatic

Or that it was just a lie?

Awkwardly apathetic

Because the scars keep fading

But the pain persists

And the offer is persuading

So tell me this

What would you do if I told you I wanted to die?

Would you smile and pat my shoulder?

Try to convince me, "It'll be alright""

Feel the air grow colder

Because this smile's a mask

Underneath is my soul

And it's fractured like glass

But. Still. Just, there, imperfectly whole

What would you do if I told you I wanted to die?

Would you honestly care a bit?!

Or gladly say goodbye?

Easily dismiss

Because I've made endless mistakes

I sowed and now I reap

With every choice, I dug my grave

Now it's my turn to bleed

So... What would you say if I told you, I JUST want to die?

But don't worry or anything

I was um... just joking the whole time...

Author's Note

I wrote this a long time ago when I was clearly in a very dark place. It is a spoken word so the writing itself may not do it justice. Thank you for reading. Hope you enjoy