beyond words

Sometimes when I find myself alone with my thoughts, my mind somehow drifts to to the last memory I have of her, I still see the image of her soaked to the bone from the rain with tears in her eyes as she looked at me like I was as fragile as glass, like I was one word away from breaking, like if she didn't hold me close I would disappear, she looked at me like I was weak. But in those emerald eyes was not an ounce of guilt for what she had done.

Why is it that even when I have no thoughts I still think of her, why is my heart so unwilling to let her go, why does my soul yearn for her. A million why's but no answers for either for them.

Perhaps I am a fool for continuing to love a person who feels nothing for me, but I cannot help myself I promised her that I would lay all the stars in the sky at her feet and I am yet to do that. All I ever wanted was a chance to fulfill all her dreams, for even if she asks for one dream I would happily give her a hundred instead.

I wish I said all this to her while I still had the chance, but it's difficult to do so when I am trapped in my shackles of responsibility and pain. So instead I continue to look over her from afar and hope that in our next life I'm given the opportunity and honor of loving her again.