Sinking

Chapter Twelve

A week later I am adjusting to being married, and also being back in school. My wedding and honeymoon are over, it was not a long one but then again, short and sweet isn't to bad either. 

I woke up this morning in my bed, i grab my laptop to check to see if there is anything from Derek and again, my heart sinks because he hasn't contacted me since he left, I know this can happen except I was not as prepared for this heart ache as I thought I would be. Before long, I gather myself get up. Dress myself for school, and I am out the door.

Adjusting to my best friend being gone, on top of my husband is not something kids my age are usually doing but with the holidays coming up I hope to find comfort with my mom, this is a year when I believe we both truly need eachvother. I walk up the steps and make my way down the hall, the classroom is filled with teens, laughing being loud, when the teacher finally commands the attention of the room, and the noise stops. 

That class was a blur and so was the rest of my day. I finally make it to the last bell and sign a deep sigh of relief, I run, down the hall, out the doors, and straight home. Praying along the way that I have something from Derek to lift my spirits. Walking into the house its quiet mom is still working and I am very much alone, I shutter and drop my bags and kick off my shoes by the front door and bolt upstairs. 

I see my laptop and three emails, and one is finally from Derek, I of course have to open it first.

To Valery Gale

From Derek Phelps

Subject: Wife

Hey darling, I know it has been radio silent on the emails lately but I have been settling in, it is hardly given me time to sit down let alone write an email. I  cant tell you where I am at, or how long I will be gone, I also cant tell you how much I miss you because lets face it, its more than any word could possibly say to explain it. I wish I could say more but I have to get going, duty calls, I wont get to e-mail you daily, but I will try my best. I love you Valery Elisa Phelps.

United states Army

Private D Phelps

Tears prick my eyes, this is the first I have herd from him in a week and I feel so absolutely helpless. How, how can he make me so crazy! I am a pretty well put together individual. I mean I thought I was. Just then I hear the door, and I know mom is home. I rush down stiars, and hug her, tight and suddenly tears start to fall. My mom doesn't say anything, at all she just brings me in and hugs me closer. A few moments later once I have allowed myself to pull myself together, I back out of my embrace with my mom, she smiles at me, her all knowing smile.

"Valery, are you okay?", she ask. I nod "yes and not really." I say to her.  She says nothing more and pats my back, later that evening we sit down to dinner, and she tells me I have an offer to finish school by December if it is something i would like to do, I just have to fill out a form, and ill be free. I like the idea, so I make the plan to see the counslor first thing in the morning. 

Dinner comes to an end and its just myself and my mom, she goes to bed and I again feel a odd feeling like all this is sinking in and I have no other options but to ride it out. I make my way to my room. I want to mail Derek back, then again. I cant do it just yet. I need to process and allow myself sometime. He'd understand... Wouldn't he?

Author's Note

Ignore grammar problems for now. also please give feed back :)