He loves me, He loves me not (working title)A Poem by JessicaRoseSometimes I sit, staring at the phone balanced precariously on my knee, while I pull the hand-rolled joint getting higher and higher just so I don't fall any lower. "I miss you", "I love you", I can't push them past my lips without immediately shying away from them. Too vulnerable of a move when I'm pressing against a cold brick wall. But why? This is not what love is supposed to feel like. Love was that inexplicable joy that caught in my throat so raw that tears sprung to my eyes; it was the gentle shifting when our heartbeats fall into the same cadence. It was the basic, organic feeling of "right". It was there, with you. It's the root of us that I've been missing. The nights we talked, no pauses, no awkward silences, and the sun greeted us before our mouths had run out of words. Fleeting moments when you'd first walk into a room and I could feel a slight charge in the air. To construct anew these ways of connecting is baffling and tiresome, but I'm willing (if you're willing). Now, if we could just get past our pride.
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Added on December 11, 2015 Last Updated on December 11, 2015 AuthorJessicaRoseBurbank, CAAboutNY----> LA the change in scenery has given me new perspective, and the opportunity to jump back into writing. more..Writing
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