I Gave You All;

If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy.

There has never been a time where I have felt so utterly uselessly helpless in my entire life. 

I've only few times brought to my flesh, a knife;

But even now, 

As I sit where I do,

The end looks no more closer than the other side of the galaxy.

No song seems sad enough,

No poem seems deep enough,

No advice seems good enough,

No person seems live enough.

Is this what love is?

If it is, I don't want it.

I'd like to send it back to where it belongs,

Because obviously it doesn't belong with me;

I quit.

I'm tired of feeling blue,

I'm tired of not being true,

I'm tired.

I'm tired.

I'm tired.

Tired of caring,

Tired of faring.

Tired of worrying,

Tired of stressing.

I'm tired. 

Will she be this?

Will she be that?

What will she do if I say this?

How can I help her through that?

Why can't I just not care at all?

Why did I seriously have to fall?

Why does she have to live so far away?

Why can't I keep this s**t at bay?

I'm tired.

I'm sad. 

Nothing feels good.

Nothing feels bad. 

Nothing feels true,

Nothing feels 'rad'.

I'll will myself away.

I'll let myself go, close my eyes for a while.

I long so desperately to allay. 

I love you. 

I love you I love you I love you;

But I'm tired. 

Tired of feeling like I'm not what you want me to be,

What you need me to be.

I want it to be forever, but do you?

Will you stick it out the whole way through?

I gave you all,

All that I've got,

And i'll continue this no matter what. 

Please don't go.